feistytrader | empatheias IC CONTACT

...You're in a tough situation.

[Not that he would have done any better if it was Blue. That's just the way family is. ...Or most family, anyway.]

Let me know if I can help, okay? I'm not going to help that guy, but that doesn't mean that I can't help you.

[Even if it's with something as simple as this.]

How are you such a good person?

[It's such a weird question, she knows that, and a part of her wonders if he'd still feel the way he does knowing that she befriended someone just to use him. That, as tough as it is, she'd drop him in a moment's notice for her brother. That she really honestly believes she could.]

-- Nevermind, it's a stupid question. I'm sorry for being a mess. Thanks for the offer though.

[All she'd wanted to do was test her stupid experiments and she ended up dragging it down. Stupid, stupid, stupid.]

...You're my friend. I care about you. I'd rather not see you hurt if I can help it. Being a good or bad person has nothing to do with it.

[He scoops her up and gets back on his feet, then looks over at the remaining potions. The despair one's finally worn off.]

Do you want me to finish these today?

[That strikes a pang in her, but she simply presses it behind her lips (don't break all at once, because seeing Leo get hurt definitely isn't something she wants but she has to risk that for Black) and stares uncertainly at the potions, throat tight and sleeves wet when she wipes her face off.]

That's... up to you, Silver. If you feel up for it, you can, since all I have to do is observe. But we can finish it up another time too. I don't mind either way.

[... Though it'd probably be better if they stopped, since White's kind of wanting to go home to see Black again and make sure he's safe, but powering through whatever bothers her is a Macbeth family specialty.]

...I'll come back tomorrow. You take it easy, okay?

[He should uh, probably set her down first. Yes. He gives her a quick pat on the head without really thinking about it and heads for the door.]

You too.

[Take it easy, huh. Between her cast and her breakdown, maybe she should, but with the election looming in the forefront of her mind it's hard to think of anything but.

So. Tomorrow. Bright and early she'll give him a ring and ask him to come over before the campaigns start, looking better than she did yesterday but more jittery and kind of spacey, honestly. White won't even notice him when he comes in.]

[He comes in bright and early the next day, this time without Weavile out, and uh...]

White?

[Surely you heard the door open, surely you're not that out of it- Right. Today's the day, isn't it?]

White, you're gonna do fine.

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[White jumps the second time she's called, smile spread wide as she clutches the dark green bottle in hand and then quickly sets it down.]

Good morning to you too, Silver. Does Weavile not want to join us in our experimentation?

[Let's not talk about the upcoming hours.]

[...Well okay, we won't talk about it then.]

Weavile's directly affected by my emotions. I don't want to put him through the rest of these.

[Really, he shouldn't have put him through the first.]

Good idea. They're pretty rough.

[Oooobviously.]

Were you okay at home? No bad side-effects you can remember?

I can't think of anything.

[Nothing but a little discomfort at everything he felt yesterday.]

So which one's next?

We can do anger, envy, or sadness. That's all we've got left, so do you want to get mad, be jealous, or have a good cry?

[Like she did yesterday. Which they're also not talking about.]

...I don't want to do any of those.

[Just. To put his personal feelings on the matter on the table.]

Surprise me.

[Sadness it is. It's the less of three evils, and besides the dark pink is a kind of pretty color, isn't it?]

Grief's probably the most well-known and most felt emotion across all worlds. People are sad for any number of reasons and it's that sadness that helps us to connect to others, [as embarrassing as it can be to cry in her opinion, how much it dampens moods and makes her feel like a kid,] so you're going to feel like that when you drink it. You're upset, but you'd still like to be around people and worry about them, to connect with them.

[Which should be easy, considering Silver's... Silver.]

I think it's my most successful one which, well, makes sense. Daimonia's the one I'm aligned to after all.

So I'm going to hug you and try not to cry. Got it.

[He's done this song and dance already with... Well, let's not think about Kimbley right now. Let's just drink this and focus on the moment.

...And at the moment, he's thinking about exactly how right he was, because the second he drinks it, he goes to do exactly what he said; White's nice and comforting to hug, which he could really use at the moment, because he just feels upset and he knows exactly why but if he really wanted to think about it, he could think of plenty of things to be upset about, and that's just going to make things worse.]

It's working.

[It's working and he doesn't like it, but here he is, wanting to spill out everything that's ever hurt before.]

[White's an excellent hugger, or she would be if she didn't have her cast. But she's done it plenty of times for her brother, for kids at the hospital, older people and creatures that don't have anyone else, and Silver's no different. Besides, he's hugged her so much already to comfort her, the least she can do is pet her tall friend's head in a soothing manner.]

I knew it would. [She pauses, tilting her head closer and speaking quietly.] It feels better if you tell what you're upset about, and it's not like I haven't spilled my guts to you more than I should've, so if you want...

[She's here to listen to anything. Silver knows some of her worst secrets (even if he doesn't know the worst of them all) so whatever he's upset about can't be any worse moral wise.]

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...I don't really know where to start.

[And that's the absolute truth, because there are plenty of things for him to be upset about, and while he usually does a good job of not being upset about them, now they're all coming at him at once, and some of them seem petty or selfish, while others he probably shouldn't talk about- but why not talk about it? White already shared her secrets, so why shouldn't he? Because the less people that know about that the better, and-

...Sadness is a mess, he can never think straight when he's upset like this, it's so much better to just press forward--]

I lost Gyarados and a friend when Sosyne came around. It was- it was someone else that was rampaging, and-

[Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry.]

I'm surrounded by people that care about me, but sometimes, I feel really alone. I'm used to being away from my friends for a while, but-

[What is he even saying anymore?]

My dad cares more about his business than he cares about me.

[Losing a Pokémon must be the hardest thing for a trainer, though she gets the pain of losing someone close to you. The father thing she doesn't understand either, since her own parents had always treasured their children to the point of wanting to take them along on business when they were old enough (and trusting them enough to take care of themselves alone). But the loneliness bit?

The loneliness is something she understands the best out of all.

White leans into him more, a gentle warmth beginning to wrap around them as she unconsciously focuses on soothing him the way she'd done Black during Selenium, just wanting to make sure he doesn't feel alone even a little. There'd be a glow to anyone on the outside.]

You really do have things pretty rough, huh. [Nice icebreaker.] I can't understand what it's like to lose a Pokémon like that, and while my family has always been close knit to an almost annoying point I took that for granted for so long that when I lost them, I... It was the lowest point in my life, so I think that's as close as it comes to getting it.

[It's not an exact fit, but maybe it'll help a little. With one thing anyway.]

But... I understand that loneliness, Silver, and it's kind of sad that I still feel that way even with Black around, isn't it? I'm kind of used to it at this point myself though. [So he can feel a little better like it's supposed to help with. Connecting to others and not feeling alone.] Keep going, if you feel like it.

[...He doesn't want to go on about his Pokémon, because there's nothing he can do about that situation, no matter how much it upsets him. He'd rather not get into his dad, either; that's a lot more complicated than he made it sound, and there's no point in getting worked up about his dad here anyway.]

...I should be used to it. I spend a lot of time away from my friends at home. But there's something about being here that makes me think that... If they were around, or big sis was around, everything would be easier.

[He doesn't know how else to describe it. They do well on their own, but better together.]

Maybe it's because they've seen and done the same things you have. Even people who come from the same world as you aren't the people you went through tough times with, right? Your friends and big sister are the ones who have.

[... Though that's just a shot in the dark, and she shrugs.]

Or so I'm guessing, really. I don't actually know all that much about you.

[It's kind of pathetic.]

...Give me the cleanser, and I'll tell you as much as you'd like.

[Because as nice as this hug is, he'd really rather not cry today.]

You're not wrong about that, though.

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I didn't think I would be. Friendship's best forged through conflict, they say.

[White needs to detach herself for this, but it's not a hard find since she'd marked them today: calmness for the physical affects and warm love to satisfy any blues.]

[...Well, it becomes significantly warmer when he takes it, and he looks relieved once the sadness is over.

Apparently all he can do is ten minutes of despair. Or distrust, probably.]

...If that's the case, I must have the best friends in the world.

[Gold. Crys. Even Blue. and their seniors and juniors and Master Lance... And some of his friends here, too.]

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I'm a little jealous. I know I have people who fit in that section, yourself included, but I can't say it helps all that much.

[... Because she still feels like the weight's on her shoulders. That's her own fault, she knows, but it still doesn't stop the bites of ice from tapping across the counter.]

Anyway, tell me all about your very best friends. What you three've been through. What makes you miss them?

...Gold's loud and outgoing. He always has to be the center of attention. Crys is more levelheaded and caring. She applies herself to everything she does.

Gold and I met each other... Because I stole Feraligatr, back when he was a Totodile, and Gold thought I stole all of his Pokémon too. [...] I was kidnapped when I was little and wanted to take down the guy that kidnapped me. It didn't matter what I did to get it. Gold and I tried taking this guy out, got put in a coma, and woke up to Lugia rampaging, and that's where we found Crys knocked out on a wrecked boat. Gold picked a fight with me for saving her first. When she first woke up, she screamed and called us both punks.

[She's not wrong.]

We've saved the world three times now. Our seniors usually helped.

[His best friends, what they've been through... What makes him miss them.]

We can do anything together. I think things would be easier with them around. [...] I'd like to see them around as much as I see you and my other friends, too. We don't get the chance to do that at home.

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