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Good idea. They're pretty rough.

[Oooobviously.]

Were you okay at home? No bad side-effects you can remember?

I can't think of anything.

[Nothing but a little discomfort at everything he felt yesterday.]

So which one's next?

We can do anger, envy, or sadness. That's all we've got left, so do you want to get mad, be jealous, or have a good cry?

[Like she did yesterday. Which they're also not talking about.]

...I don't want to do any of those.

[Just. To put his personal feelings on the matter on the table.]

Surprise me.

[Sadness it is. It's the less of three evils, and besides the dark pink is a kind of pretty color, isn't it?]

Grief's probably the most well-known and most felt emotion across all worlds. People are sad for any number of reasons and it's that sadness that helps us to connect to others, [as embarrassing as it can be to cry in her opinion, how much it dampens moods and makes her feel like a kid,] so you're going to feel like that when you drink it. You're upset, but you'd still like to be around people and worry about them, to connect with them.

[Which should be easy, considering Silver's... Silver.]

I think it's my most successful one which, well, makes sense. Daimonia's the one I'm aligned to after all.

So I'm going to hug you and try not to cry. Got it.

[He's done this song and dance already with... Well, let's not think about Kimbley right now. Let's just drink this and focus on the moment.

...And at the moment, he's thinking about exactly how right he was, because the second he drinks it, he goes to do exactly what he said; White's nice and comforting to hug, which he could really use at the moment, because he just feels upset and he knows exactly why but if he really wanted to think about it, he could think of plenty of things to be upset about, and that's just going to make things worse.]

It's working.

[It's working and he doesn't like it, but here he is, wanting to spill out everything that's ever hurt before.]

[White's an excellent hugger, or she would be if she didn't have her cast. But she's done it plenty of times for her brother, for kids at the hospital, older people and creatures that don't have anyone else, and Silver's no different. Besides, he's hugged her so much already to comfort her, the least she can do is pet her tall friend's head in a soothing manner.]

I knew it would. [She pauses, tilting her head closer and speaking quietly.] It feels better if you tell what you're upset about, and it's not like I haven't spilled my guts to you more than I should've, so if you want...

[She's here to listen to anything. Silver knows some of her worst secrets (even if he doesn't know the worst of them all) so whatever he's upset about can't be any worse moral wise.]

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...I don't really know where to start.

[And that's the absolute truth, because there are plenty of things for him to be upset about, and while he usually does a good job of not being upset about them, now they're all coming at him at once, and some of them seem petty or selfish, while others he probably shouldn't talk about- but why not talk about it? White already shared her secrets, so why shouldn't he? Because the less people that know about that the better, and-

...Sadness is a mess, he can never think straight when he's upset like this, it's so much better to just press forward--]

I lost Gyarados and a friend when Sosyne came around. It was- it was someone else that was rampaging, and-

[Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry.]

I'm surrounded by people that care about me, but sometimes, I feel really alone. I'm used to being away from my friends for a while, but-

[What is he even saying anymore?]

My dad cares more about his business than he cares about me.

[Losing a Pokémon must be the hardest thing for a trainer, though she gets the pain of losing someone close to you. The father thing she doesn't understand either, since her own parents had always treasured their children to the point of wanting to take them along on business when they were old enough (and trusting them enough to take care of themselves alone). But the loneliness bit?

The loneliness is something she understands the best out of all.

White leans into him more, a gentle warmth beginning to wrap around them as she unconsciously focuses on soothing him the way she'd done Black during Selenium, just wanting to make sure he doesn't feel alone even a little. There'd be a glow to anyone on the outside.]

You really do have things pretty rough, huh. [Nice icebreaker.] I can't understand what it's like to lose a Pokémon like that, and while my family has always been close knit to an almost annoying point I took that for granted for so long that when I lost them, I... It was the lowest point in my life, so I think that's as close as it comes to getting it.

[It's not an exact fit, but maybe it'll help a little. With one thing anyway.]

But... I understand that loneliness, Silver, and it's kind of sad that I still feel that way even with Black around, isn't it? I'm kind of used to it at this point myself though. [So he can feel a little better like it's supposed to help with. Connecting to others and not feeling alone.] Keep going, if you feel like it.

[...He doesn't want to go on about his Pokémon, because there's nothing he can do about that situation, no matter how much it upsets him. He'd rather not get into his dad, either; that's a lot more complicated than he made it sound, and there's no point in getting worked up about his dad here anyway.]

...I should be used to it. I spend a lot of time away from my friends at home. But there's something about being here that makes me think that... If they were around, or big sis was around, everything would be easier.

[He doesn't know how else to describe it. They do well on their own, but better together.]

Maybe it's because they've seen and done the same things you have. Even people who come from the same world as you aren't the people you went through tough times with, right? Your friends and big sister are the ones who have.

[... Though that's just a shot in the dark, and she shrugs.]

Or so I'm guessing, really. I don't actually know all that much about you.

[It's kind of pathetic.]

...Give me the cleanser, and I'll tell you as much as you'd like.

[Because as nice as this hug is, he'd really rather not cry today.]

You're not wrong about that, though.

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I didn't think I would be. Friendship's best forged through conflict, they say.

[White needs to detach herself for this, but it's not a hard find since she'd marked them today: calmness for the physical affects and warm love to satisfy any blues.]

[...Well, it becomes significantly warmer when he takes it, and he looks relieved once the sadness is over.

Apparently all he can do is ten minutes of despair. Or distrust, probably.]

...If that's the case, I must have the best friends in the world.

[Gold. Crys. Even Blue. and their seniors and juniors and Master Lance... And some of his friends here, too.]

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I'm a little jealous. I know I have people who fit in that section, yourself included, but I can't say it helps all that much.

[... Because she still feels like the weight's on her shoulders. That's her own fault, she knows, but it still doesn't stop the bites of ice from tapping across the counter.]

Anyway, tell me all about your very best friends. What you three've been through. What makes you miss them?

...Gold's loud and outgoing. He always has to be the center of attention. Crys is more levelheaded and caring. She applies herself to everything she does.

Gold and I met each other... Because I stole Feraligatr, back when he was a Totodile, and Gold thought I stole all of his Pokémon too. [...] I was kidnapped when I was little and wanted to take down the guy that kidnapped me. It didn't matter what I did to get it. Gold and I tried taking this guy out, got put in a coma, and woke up to Lugia rampaging, and that's where we found Crys knocked out on a wrecked boat. Gold picked a fight with me for saving her first. When she first woke up, she screamed and called us both punks.

[She's not wrong.]

We've saved the world three times now. Our seniors usually helped.

[His best friends, what they've been through... What makes him miss them.]

We can do anything together. I think things would be easier with them around. [...] I'd like to see them around as much as I see you and my other friends, too. We don't get the chance to do that at home.

That's quite the beginning you have for both of them. Saving the world sounds amazing, too, I would've never guessed.

[She's a little wistful on the second remark, because that is a way to get your mark on the world if any.]

... My brother didn't get to visit me as often as either of us would've liked back in Hellsalem's Lot, so I'm glad to be given that chance here. Even if I know the reason why he didn't now.

[Privately, a very small part of her thinks that her brother might hate her for what happened to their parents. Very, very small.]

How'd you three save the world so many times? I won't say that it can't be in need that often since I've lived in Hellsalem's Lot for the last three years of my life and there's always a world crisis there, but I thought your world would be more peaceful than mine.

...People keep pissing off legendary Pokémon, up to and including the closest thing we have to God.

[...]

They're like the Arehtei, kind of.

[The Arehtei are what make the most sense to him here, really.]

[... Oh.]

And you have to clean up their messes. Typical. Adults can't do anything themselves.

Well, we have to clean them up too, but yeah, more or less.

[...So anyway-]

Which one's next? There's anger and envy, right?

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[was that a nice way to say you fuckin murder them

silver please.]

Anger. I remembered that you didn't like envy, so I'm saving the worst for last.

[He can have the bottle she was fiddling with, yup.]

It'll... do pretty much what you expect it to do. You'll be angry about something. Like I said, I was angry at myself, and it'll hopefully make you wish you could change those things about yourself.

[It uh. It just made her feel horrible. So. Anyway.]

[They come back!!]

It's not that I don't...

[Envy isn't too bad, but it's... Well, if anything, anger's worse, but here he is, about to try them both anyway.]

...Here's hoping it goes better than hatred.

[Down goes the second to last bottle, and. Well. It's getting a little hot, isn't it. ...A lot hot, actually.]

[Such an opposite of the ice from yesterday. Weavile would've melted, and White gingerly has to ask.]

How is it?

[He starts to turn towards the door again, then pointedly doesn't; it's painfully clear that he wants to go do something about it; he's clenching his fists a little too tightly; he's lucky he has his gloves on so his nails can't dig into his skin.]

I'm furious, I've been furious a million times, but...

[But it would be so nice to storm straight up to Kimbley's place and just punch him and punch him again until he doesn't get up, or maybe cut out the middle man and have Rhyperior do it, or storm over to the Beastmaster Hunting Guild and do something because something is better than nothing.

And that's the problem, isn't it, he's all too eager to pick fights and not care what gets hurt in the process when he's angry, and it endangers him and it endangers his Pokémon. And not feeling anger isn't the answer either, so what is the answer? It has to be-]

I can keep a level head, even if I'm angry. I'm not running out to pick a fight, even if I really want to. I'm not setting myself on fire anymore.

[He's not getting his Pokémon killed anymore.]

[That is

intense, and White's going to take one of his hands. To try and pry it open a little to give him the cleanser, if he wants it, all calm with a hint of contentedness.]

I'm glad to hear that. This place would go up in flame pretty easily if that happened, and I...

[...]

I'm not all that fond of fire myself, so I appreciate the effort.

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