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[...Like him, huh.]

...I like to try to do the right thing. I'm not sure if I do it, but I try. And back home, it's... I don't know if it's easier than it is here, but it's a lot more direct.

[You stop the bad guys because they're bad, they hurt lots of people, they try to ruin the world. And that's good. That's all there is to it.]

Is it okay to just care about the people that are important to me, or should I care about everyone? Am I wrong to not care about the natives, even if they treat us poorly? Even if they have reasons for it? Should I fight so people stop killing monsters, or should I look out for my own neck, because there are people that matter more? I choose who I like based on how they treat me, and there are only a few things I won't overlook because I've been treated well by someone that's done terrible things before. I'm still stuck on the guy that killed all of those centipedes, because he didn't kill mine, and I'm scared I'll lose my team if I fight him. And...

Well, I've always stolen a lot, but I don't really care about that. Don't tell anyone.

[Nailed it.]

...So I'm just trying my best, and then there are people like Ludger, Cilan, Jude, and all my friends at home, where being good and doing the right thing comes naturally to them.

[...]

I wish they were around.

[That's a lot.

But the most she says at first is just a few words:]

Your secret's safe with me.

[... and then she chews the rest around, tapping her fingers across the wood of the counter. For someone like her, is there even a choice to be a "good person," to "do the best she can," something like that? After all she's done, after all she's thought and planned for, does she deserve to want to be a good person the way Silver tries to be?]

People like the ones you listed all make me really mad, you know. They're all just... It's like they were born that way. Like they've never had a dilemma that forced their hand or had them make a choice between what they have to do and what they want to do. Compromising their morals or risk losing something important to them.

[White's fingers tap against ice she's creating with her emotions, envy frosting out from her being. It's cold and desolate.]

What do you consider a good person, Silver? Answering the questions you asked. What would your friends at home do or say?

...That's not true for Ludger, but I know exactly what you're talking about.

[He can give him that much credit.]

A good person...

...Gold isn't a good person.

[Thanks.]

But he does the right thing. ...Crys is a good person, and she'd probably find a way to care about everyone and make sure everyone's okay. But that would just get her hurt. Big sis is like me, but smarter.

[...This is difficult.]

Are you okay?

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[Maybe being a good person's not all it's cracked up to be, then. Leo's a good person too, and of he kept being her friend, if he was still involved for long enough...

White's head snaps up, blinking back tears, and she nods.]

Uh huh! Perfectly okay. I guess it's not so simple after all though, huh? What make someone a good person.

...Maybe you weren't that far off.

[...]

Although by your definition, I think you're a good person too.

[It stuns White into silence, throat tightening up, and she swallows hard. Not able to look at Silver anymore.]

A lot of people have told me things like that. That they think I'm a good person, a hero, someone that's as decent as them. And I really wish I could agree. But... I don't think I've felt like a good person since before that night three years ago.

...You're making some tough choices for someone you care about. I don't know if you're doing the right thing, but I think you're a good person.

[If anything, this conversation's made that much clear; there's a difference between what you are and what you do.]

[... Would he still think that if he knew?

She almost wants to test it now, just to tell him why she's not a good person and how there's not a shred of hope for her in that regard, how heartless Junko Enoshima had commented on her being.

But White shrugs, forcing a little laugh.]

Well, I guess it's nice that someone can still say that. [... Anyway.] You, um, seem to be handling envy pretty well, so... taking the cleanser probably isn't necessary. If you want, you can.

I'm bitter about everything under the sun, but I can handle it.

[He should handle it, even. Some of those negative emotions he can't really handle, but... He has to stop avoiding them, right? It's okay to feel them in moderation.

...Sadness and hatred both suck.]

Okay. Then, we're done! Thanks a lot for your help, Silver, I know it hasn't been the most pleasant experience.

[For either of them, though with that done... her jittery feelings about the campaign are coming back, crackling starting to pop to life.]

No problem.

[He's stuck it through all seven, and... Really, it could have been worse.]

...Are you going to try them out on anyone else?

I don't know. I probably should, but I'd want to run them by Jude first since he'd want to look at them... but something tells me he wouldn't be too happy about me making them in the first place.

[Not with how the Arehtei are.]

Why do you ask?

I know a guy that might like to try them.

[...That he's still apparently super mad at, but.]

[Like... to try negative emotions...

...

...

Okay.]

I'll give you a box of them, then. Just a moment!

[She needs to fill a small crate with a sample of each -- marked with their names this time -- along with their corresponding cleansers.]

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