feistytrader | IC INBOX for recolle

No, certainly not. You're perfect.

[Big Fucking Lie.]

I might have believed you if you said you have no friends.

[You damn liar.]

[Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm--]

There's someone I wanted to ask before you, but... I decided not to. That's all I'll say on the matter.

[...Silver puts a hand on his head and ruffles his hair. The gesture is sort of rough, but it's... Still affectionate. Maybe. What the hell, Silver?]

You should do what you want to do, you know. Don't just settle.

[... What the fuck Silver that's-- that's so nice, actually, he looks a little taken back.]

No, it's... I've known you longer, even if our relationship hasn't been the most conventional, and I really wouldn't have asked if I wasn't serious about you.

[Which makes this entire thing sound Kind Of Gay, I'm sorry.]

[...That's sort of touching, and Silver... Isn't sure what to do with this information. Alright, let's- let's try honesty, right? That's worked out okay before, and... Ugh.]

I'm probably going to say yes. I just need to talk to someone about it. The person I've been staying with for the past few weeks.

[It was never supposed to be a permanent deal, so why? Why is he so reluctant about this?
This is what he wanted, isn't it?]

I can live with anyone that knows about retrospec, so I'm fine with any roommate you want. If you end up forgetting about everything, I'll still pay for rent and bills, but I'm moving out onto the streets immediately.

[Has Silver ever been this serious before?]

[Oh, this is so new, it's uncomfortable and oddly okay at the same time. How does he... What's he say.]

That's... Yes, that's acceptable. Thank you.

[Like, for a lot of that? Um.]

I'll send you the address later so you can give it a look over as well, and I don't mind waiting longer than a week if it comes to it. But I'd like to move in before the term starts.

A week's plenty, don't worry.

[Although the address would be appreciated.]

You're majoring in your cop stuff, right?

It's not... [sigh.] Yes, I'm majoring in Criminology. Why?

[Does Silver want to join him, as unlikely as that is.]

When'd you decide that? I mean, I can't remember a time when you didn't go on about being a detective, but when did you decide it was a great idea to sink a bunch of money into it?

[Hey look, he's not calling detectives useless today. It really is a weird day.]

When I learned you required a certain degree of college education and experience through interships to be taken seriously by agencies, primarily.

[But he only pauses for a beat, rubbing his arm.]

I think I would have gone anyway, though. There's many different viewpoints offered in higher education, and I value that.

Why do you want to become a detective, anyway?

[You know, Goro's probably answered this plenty of times, but this is the first time that Silver actually seems interested in the answer.]

You are so oddly interested in me today, Silver. I don't mind playing twenty questions... but you're making want to ask why.

[Inspiring his detective spirit, as it was.]

It's not that big of a mystery. I've never been passionate about anything in my life, so I'm trying to wrap my head around it.

[Maybe saying he's never been passionate about anything is a bit of a stretch, but... It gets the point across well enough, anyway.]

[A thoughtful hum. Alright.]

Well, I've always admired them for the reasons anyone else might; they're smart and clever, but they don't lose that human feel to them despite being seemingly out of touch, beyond our reach. Even Holmes had his vices! But they're well-liked and sought after to solve things that stump those otherwise, and always bring the right person to justice, even if that justice lies in allowing the supposed culprit escape.

[They're not black and white, essentially. They're very much human and can make mistakes too, but no one dislikes them just because they make one.]

There's another reason I'd like to become one, though, even if it may remain a... a hobby, I guess, [which he is obviously loathe to call it,] but it's more personal.

[Read: he probably won't give it up.]

[That... Doesn't explain anything, actually, but that last part catches his interest quite a bit.]

What's the personal reason?

[...He's not just gonna give it up for that, Silver, come on-]

I'll share a secret with you for it.

You first, then.

Tell this to anyone and I'll beat you up for real, got it?

[Now that he's asserted himself, how exactly does he want to go about this?]

I just grew out of the foster system. That part's not much of a secret.

[Although he tries not to talk about it much. He's hesitant to follow down this line of conversation, so he pauses to see if Goro's following.]

I suspect that's part of why you're eager to have a place to live, yes.

[So. He'll nod, go on. What's your secret, pal.]

...I wasn't given up or orphaned. I got lost when I was younger.

[It's not the whole truth, but he doesn't seem particularly inclined to elaborate further. No one ever believed him when he told the whole truth anyway.]

I'm still holding out hope on finding my parents someday, even if it's probably impossible.

[Oh, he can't help but think, you too.]

Why?

[It's a question startled out of him and it's rude, but. Silver is Silver. Goro's fine with being rude to him.]

Why do you think, detective?

[It's not said mockingly, at least. He'd just rather beat around the bush than explain himself.]

[To meet them, even once. Goro shakes his head.]

In truth, it's probably the same as mine.

[... This is definitely not something he's told anyone, but Silver revealed something like that about himself and... really, he feels an odd sort of kinship, even if he's hesitating to continue.

He ends up watching Aoi instead, wondering if he could pet the odd creature.]

It's not... quite the same, I feel, but... The other reason is to find out who my father is. I've never met him, but I want to know who he is, what made my mom like him in the first place.

[Why he left them, what made him look at his mother and just... decide not to deal with it.]

It's a selfish reason to become a detective, but it's what's been the driving me beyond anything else.

[...For the first time, he actually feels like he understands Goro. That's a way of thinking he can wrap his head around a lot better than the mystery and justice.]

It's a selfish reason, but it's more honest.

[Silver gives him a gentle punch in the shoulder.]

You're gonna have to get better at decking people. If your dad turns out to be a jerk, you need to get him right in the face.

[Oh-- oh, that's a friendly punch, okay. There's such an unusual amount of relief he's feeling too, a bond growing stronger with Silver, and his smile's small and sincere.]

Is that why you pick fights so often, Silver? Just in case yours turns out that way too?

[He's just joking.]

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too bad he's Thrilled now

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