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[...Well that actually gets a chill through the crystal, but not for anything that Nagito's done.

In fact, Silver lets out a little bit of nervous laughter before he continues.]

You know, if you told me Junko did something like that, I would've been mad at her a lot sooner.

[Why does this actually bother him more than the world ending? Maybe because you can stop people from ending the world. Maybe because there aren't Pokémon to warp time and space into an unlivable void, and obviously some people are alive.

But that's not important right now.]

So you tried to kill everyone in this game?

[Except... the traitor person...? But that doesn't work if you're the only one that makes it out alive, does it?]

As I said, all but the traitor. ...It isn't the first time she's enacted a killing game, Silver. We were the second killing life she enacted.

[He pauses, not sure if he should continue. Considering that little chill.]

Ah, or the last time she's tried to mess with me. [Let's not...talk about the recent one. He'd rather not.]

Anyway, there's one way I could have kept the traitor alive. You remember my talent, right?

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Wait, wait, pause.

[Because this story is important, but at the same time-]

She's put a bunch of people together and made them kill each other for funsies- or despair, in this case. Multiple times.

Why didn't you tell me about this sooner?

[Why did he ever think being Junko's friend was a good idea.]

...I thought she'd told you. I'm hardly surprised she didn't and ashamed of myself for not considering that angle of logic. Also hardly surprising considering what a waste of space I tend to be. [He hasn't self hated in a while but damn did that last memory he saw of himself bring it back. The self loathing is right there with them in angry red hues.]

Anyway, yes she did and she broadcast-ed it to the world the first time. Who knows who is seeing it the second time. ...I have my theories there as well.

You're not a waste of space, I just-

[Holy shit, he was prepared for something, and that something wasn't this. He pauses to go take an order back because he's not serving anyone half boiling half frozen coffee that tastes like frustration.]

Okay, first of all, Junko's not just obviously evil, she's also a huge creep.

[Because who does that. Junko, apparently.]

Second of all, whenever we get to go home, please some home with me, or at least go somewhere that isn't that.

[Sure his home may have the apocalypse every now and then but at least it's not that.]

Third of all, I'm guessing you did some thing with your luck to try to get your traitor friend out, but I can't for the life of me figure out what.

[He jerks and his desk bursts into full bloom and some of the floor too.]

You want-

You wouldn't mind if I-

[What the hell. He can't. He doesn't. What.

What.

WHAT?!]

[He stares at the desk and wonders how badly his boss is going to wring his neck.

Nevermind his face is really red. Why does Silver keep making him flustered?!

Right the...explanation.] I didn't know who the traitor was and no one came forward. So I trusted my luck.

[That makes no fucking sense what so ever when there's all these frazzled feelings of embarrassment shock, joy, happiness and a flood of hope rolling through. He gets that under control while pouring out his tea that's just...well it's something.] Even if I didn't remember it, I'm still very sorry that I broke my promise. I'll...I'll understand if you're mad at me.

Edited 2016-01-09 05:50 (UTC)

I don't want to see you hurt, but it's not like I can control what you do at home, where you didn't even remember.

[He doesn't sound mad at all; he might be mad, but it's definitely not in Nagito's direction, and his anger doesn't belong at his work or this conversation.

Although damn does that give him an idea of what happened, and one he doesn't really want to elaborate on.]

...So this was about that guy, Hinata, right?

Do you want to get along with him? Either way, it might be a good idea to talk things out.

[The reply takes a few minutes to happen. Nagito moves about his workplace putting to rights what his slip of control had done wrong. When he can't spot a single tiny white flower, he picks up where he left off.]

We did talk...in a way. It only confused me more than ever. I don't think it did him any favors, either. [Does he want to get along with Hinata? He doesn't know the answer.] I really don't know what I want from him.

...You don't have to talk to him if you don't want to, you know.

[He wishes he was in person so he could put a hand on Nagito's shoulder, but there's only so much you can do over a crystal.

He at the very least sends a caring feeling the best he can, despite the outburst from earlier. It's not very difficult if it's for Nagito.]

[It's a bit like sitting beside each other or so Nagito takes it. He sighs, scrubbing at his face. He easily lets Silver feel how much he appreciates the gesture. It means a lot.]

I think I want to. I wouldn't have if I'd been straight from home but now...it's different. [He'd have never thought to say it but now.] I'm different.

I'm not entirely sure what any of it means.

I'm different too. We all are. There's no way you could say in a place like this without any change.

[There's just too much happening at any given moment. ...But how to feel about it, on the other hand...]

Do you like the way you've changed?

Yes. [He doesn't even hesitate. As much as he has doubts that he's worthy of the people who give a damn about him...]

I'm actually invited to functions. I'm not hated. I have a life and...friends. Mm, it's not the most exciting life but I don't care. I still think I'm not worth any of the troubles, but at the same time...I believe in all of you.

I believe in you. And...maybe...no, I am starting to believe a little in myself.

Do you like how you've changed, Silver?

[...There's a decent sized pause as he considers how to answer that; there's no simple happy answer that comes immediately.]

I don't know.

[That's the most honest answer he can really give, but it's also not a very helpful one.]

I don't know if I like it, but I don't know if I dislike it, either. But even if I don't know, it's the way I am now, and all I can do is look forward.

[It's not the kindest answer, but it's all he has.]

[It's not good or bad. It just is. Nearly a year ago he wouldn't have been satisfied with it. Something not hope or despair is...lackluster. Now however, he laughs softly.]

I suppose I should have expected that! Silver, even if you hadn't liked the person you are now...one thing this place taught me is. [His voice lowers a fraction as he finishes cleaning up the desk.] We can change.

No. People are always changing. The person we were yesterday isn't who we will be the next day. So long as we're connected to others we'll always shift somehow.

Mmm, but I don't mean to ramble on. What I'm saying is. Take your time finding your answers. No matter what they are, I'll stand with you.

...You're right. And the people I'm connected to, well, that's not bad at all.

[Except for Junko, but that's not going to last very long, now is it.]

I can't tell you what to do with your, uh... classmate. [Classmate? IS that a good thing to call him?] That's your decision. But if you need any help, let me know, okay?

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[Classmate is well, uh fine. He has yet to figure out the other possible, erm term.]

...I'll let you know. I suspect it's going to be difficult. Whatever he does anyway. I did quite a lot of things back on the islands. Mmm, sometimes he's very predictable.

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