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[He stares at the desk and wonders how badly his boss is going to wring his neck.

Nevermind his face is really red. Why does Silver keep making him flustered?!

Right the...explanation.] I didn't know who the traitor was and no one came forward. So I trusted my luck.

[That makes no fucking sense what so ever when there's all these frazzled feelings of embarrassment shock, joy, happiness and a flood of hope rolling through. He gets that under control while pouring out his tea that's just...well it's something.] Even if I didn't remember it, I'm still very sorry that I broke my promise. I'll...I'll understand if you're mad at me.

Edited 2016-01-09 05:50 (UTC)

I don't want to see you hurt, but it's not like I can control what you do at home, where you didn't even remember.

[He doesn't sound mad at all; he might be mad, but it's definitely not in Nagito's direction, and his anger doesn't belong at his work or this conversation.

Although damn does that give him an idea of what happened, and one he doesn't really want to elaborate on.]

...So this was about that guy, Hinata, right?

Do you want to get along with him? Either way, it might be a good idea to talk things out.

[The reply takes a few minutes to happen. Nagito moves about his workplace putting to rights what his slip of control had done wrong. When he can't spot a single tiny white flower, he picks up where he left off.]

We did talk...in a way. It only confused me more than ever. I don't think it did him any favors, either. [Does he want to get along with Hinata? He doesn't know the answer.] I really don't know what I want from him.

...You don't have to talk to him if you don't want to, you know.

[He wishes he was in person so he could put a hand on Nagito's shoulder, but there's only so much you can do over a crystal.

He at the very least sends a caring feeling the best he can, despite the outburst from earlier. It's not very difficult if it's for Nagito.]

[It's a bit like sitting beside each other or so Nagito takes it. He sighs, scrubbing at his face. He easily lets Silver feel how much he appreciates the gesture. It means a lot.]

I think I want to. I wouldn't have if I'd been straight from home but now...it's different. [He'd have never thought to say it but now.] I'm different.

I'm not entirely sure what any of it means.

I'm different too. We all are. There's no way you could say in a place like this without any change.

[There's just too much happening at any given moment. ...But how to feel about it, on the other hand...]

Do you like the way you've changed?

Yes. [He doesn't even hesitate. As much as he has doubts that he's worthy of the people who give a damn about him...]

I'm actually invited to functions. I'm not hated. I have a life and...friends. Mm, it's not the most exciting life but I don't care. I still think I'm not worth any of the troubles, but at the same time...I believe in all of you.

I believe in you. And...maybe...no, I am starting to believe a little in myself.

Do you like how you've changed, Silver?

[...There's a decent sized pause as he considers how to answer that; there's no simple happy answer that comes immediately.]

I don't know.

[That's the most honest answer he can really give, but it's also not a very helpful one.]

I don't know if I like it, but I don't know if I dislike it, either. But even if I don't know, it's the way I am now, and all I can do is look forward.

[It's not the kindest answer, but it's all he has.]

[It's not good or bad. It just is. Nearly a year ago he wouldn't have been satisfied with it. Something not hope or despair is...lackluster. Now however, he laughs softly.]

I suppose I should have expected that! Silver, even if you hadn't liked the person you are now...one thing this place taught me is. [His voice lowers a fraction as he finishes cleaning up the desk.] We can change.

No. People are always changing. The person we were yesterday isn't who we will be the next day. So long as we're connected to others we'll always shift somehow.

Mmm, but I don't mean to ramble on. What I'm saying is. Take your time finding your answers. No matter what they are, I'll stand with you.

...You're right. And the people I'm connected to, well, that's not bad at all.

[Except for Junko, but that's not going to last very long, now is it.]

I can't tell you what to do with your, uh... classmate. [Classmate? IS that a good thing to call him?] That's your decision. But if you need any help, let me know, okay?

Edited 2016-01-16 03:20 (UTC)

[Classmate is well, uh fine. He has yet to figure out the other possible, erm term.]

...I'll let you know. I suspect it's going to be difficult. Whatever he does anyway. I did quite a lot of things back on the islands. Mmm, sometimes he's very predictable.

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