feistytrader | IC INBOX for recolle

It's not about a tough guy image or being a pushover.
I just
I don't want people thinking I'm reliable, that's all.

[ It's not her place to ask. They're not close, and it's none of her business, and a number of other things... ]

expectations are a heavy crown to wear. such a burden cannot be taken lightly, and failing the standards others have found fit to place upon you can be brutal.
it's much easier not to give them any, or to give them the expectation that one has no worries or cares and so one does as one pleases. perhaps even being unreliable, in that case.

[ ...they're not that close, but as it turns out, this is sort of something for her. She stares after typing all of that, lips pursed together. ]

my apologies.
i'm not certain if that is the issue here, and i may have let my words run away from me.

[...It takes a while for him to reply. It might seem like he's not going to reply at all for a while, and then-]

No, I understand.
I just grew out of the foster system.
Turns out that being tossed around like a cheap party favor is a really good way to make you hate being reliable.

[Or to fuck it up.]

Edited 2017-07-11 05:03 (UTC)

[ This might normally be the part where she flounces into something more cheerful. A joke, maybe. Hashtag "no parents". Hashtag "no stable home". Something like that.

But that doesn't feel right, not right now, and she's left thinking about her reply; so it takes a while, because metaphorically laying her cards out and showing any of them isn't easy for her, but there's nothing else she can think to do that won't result in worsening relations. She did start this off with an apology, after all; she does like spending time with him, even if she'd consider them just acquaintances.

(It is, though, slightly less hard over text than it would be face-to-face or even over voice. The beauty of putting importance on online relationships over the fragility of offline ones.) ]

it is.

you are, legally, an adult now though. there's no being tossed around anymore, not if you don't want to.
i find that the most extraordinary thing about being 18 now, honestly.

Yeah. It's pretty liberating, isn't it?
Goro offered to let me room with him, too.

[...Although, if that's her story, now that he thinks about it...]

What's your living situation like, Liz?

[ Him and Goro really are good friends, aren't they. ...And he called her Liz. This is the second person who has. ]

currently, i'm staying with a very distantly-related uncle of mine, though until this year that was not the case.
his side of the family seems to be much richer than my immediate and even extended family, and he delights in using his money (which, if i recall correctly, is what would be referred to as "old money") in pursuits that do not fit his side of the family's ideals.
they're very traditional, you see, and he is rather bohemian.
regardless, he has not been unkind to me, and he's even secured me a job at his flower shop. he pays me slightly better than his other employees as well, i think.
he calls it my reward for going outside.

[ A small smile to herself. ]

however...
perhaps it is silly, but i feel as if one of these days, i will wake up and another person somewhere in our family will be claiming custody of me, despite my age.
my parents were not incredibly wealthy, but my inheritance was not a particularly small sum, either.

i suppose the short version is that my living situation is technically a very good one, but i have been waiting a very long time to be an adult.
i've made it clear that once i was graduated, i was going to move elsewhere, and i was planning on the university's dormitories... though i realize now i would not be able to stay in them permanently either and would end up returning to my uncle's house, if i had not found an apartment or something.

[ ... wait. ]

why do you ask?

[...Well, after hearing all of that, there's no way he can't offer.]

Come room with Goro and I.
We've got three bedrooms, and one has your name on it.

[ Haha wait oh. ]

are you serious?

[...]

I mean it doesn't literally have your name on it, but I can spraypaint that right on the walls if you want.

that wasn't the part i was asking the validity of.

Right.
Then yeah, I don't see why not.
I mean if Goro has a problem with it then I'll just tell him we'll go find a place without him and he'll probably start crying, but I doubt he will.

[ This is a great offer.

This is also, at its core, a very sudden one. She hardly knows anything about either of them, and they hardly know anything about her. In fact, the thing she'd been fairly smug about earlier was that very fact: Silver didn't have anything he could use against her to get her to stop calling him nice, unlike with Goro? ]

this is why we called you kind, Silver.
i'll write it in my notes:
* willing to offer a place of residency to someone he hasn't known very long at all

[ this isn't a yes or a no, liz ]

[...That isn't an answer, and it honestly takes him a minute to piece together why the hesitance could potentially be there, because he would readily accept living with pretty much anyone for his own space.

...

Or that's what he thought, anyway. He's not even around all that much, and the idea of leaving Toushiro and Elda is still difficult.]

You don't have to decide right now, or even soon. We can afford the place without a third.
I told Goro that my conditions for staying are that he can't snitch and I don't want to live with anyone that doesn't have retrospec, though.
If that affects your decision any.

i believe my answer would be the same either way, truthfully.
i'm just wondering how to approach this.
it's a very out-of-the-blue offer...
it almost feels like you'd want something out of me. there must be a reason, after all.

[ And it's not so much "her own space" as "yet again I am living with another group of people," in all honesty. It's different, though, because it is her choice to say yes or no to, right? Hmm... ]

If you're looking for a complex or shady reason, I've got none.
A practical reason is that I wouldn't have to deal with Goro alone.
Another is that looking for apartments is an absolute pain I wouldn't wish on anyone, although I guess that's less of a problem if you've got the money for it.
And I think we're friends.
You don't need a long and complicated relationship to decide you like someone. Usually you can tell the first time you meet them.

[ ... Friends. ]

well, if that's all it is...
then i humbly accept your offer, Silver, and i look forward to living with you and Akechi.
who i don't believe is that bad. he's rather fun to watch, actually.

We've got him outnumbered two to one.
We'll be fine.

i wasn't really worried about if we were going to be fine or not...
though that answer makes me want to ask if Akechi will be okay.
you and him seem to be rather close friends, so i assume you wouldn't push things too far, however i've also heard he is "a wuss."

I don't know if I'd call us close friends.
I can't really deny friends at this point. He wouldn't invite me to live with him otherwise.
His attitude gets on my nerves, though.

what aspect of it does?

He's always looking down at me.

[ ooooooooh this is some messy friendship politics, she's definitely not equipped for this. ]

i see.
have you talked to him about this habit of his?

He wouldn't listen.
It's no big deal, though. Sometimes he lets down his guard and is a pretty decent guy.

[No need to overwhelm Elizabeth with all the details right off the bat.]

[ maybe that's why he's got such a good relationship with elizabeth, she's usually catching people off-guard. ]

well, it's none of my business, so i won't pry any further.
i suppose.

Don't worry too much.
I wouldn't give him the time of day if I thought the cons outweighed the pros.

[They wouldn't annoy him if he didn't like the guy, he wants to say, but... No, that's too much.]

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