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[feistytrader]

Gintaro Suzukaze

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[thesettingsun]

...I think it probably wouldn't have been as bad if it wasn't on purpose. Obviously the drowning still would have hurt, it would have been terrifying, but...

[Knowing that he did that to himself intentionally makes it worse, somehow. Shuji can't pin down why.]

[feistytrader]

...You want to live, right? It sounds pretty rough to have to wrap your head around something like that.

[There's the possibility that he's assuming incorrectly here, but it's something to throw out anyway.]

[thesettingsun]

I want to live. I've never, ever actually wanted to die.

[So being in that mindset for the first time is - awful. How do people cope with that?]

[feistytrader]

[Silver... Isn't sure how to respond to that, really. It takes him a moment to respond, and it's not before he starts crushing the cup his smoothie's in, but-]

Why the hell do we have to remember this shit? It's bad enough that the colors and horses are gone, or that our hair or eyes can just change, but I don't want to get a first person view into some stranger's head like that.

[The memories themselves are a mixed bag, but the thoughts and feelings that come with them? Fuck that.]

[thesettingsun]

Right. I've got enough feelings in my own head, I don't need somebody else's dumped in there too.

[If there's anything Shuji has enough of on his own, it's feelings.]