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Just forget that you saw that.

[It's just one- well, a couple of sheets of paper, but the important part is that it's a list of names!

...There are brief sentence long explanations to go with them, and they're... There's an attempt to put them in order, at least. The short version of the content, however, is that they seem to be a list of the different foster parents Silver's been through, as well as therapists. As for under them, there's an explanation of how each of those relationships ended. A good portion of them are what Toushiro would expect- Silver definitely has a track record of giving people a hard time- but a good number of them sing a different tune. "She collected her paycheck and left us on our own for days." "He called me a liar and didn't want to deal with my problems anymore." Foster care kind of sucks.]

...Proof. That I'm a coward.

[He needs to say more than that and he knows it, but for now, he's sucking down more of his smoothie and giving Toushiro some time to digest all of that.]

[ tentatively, hitsugaya takes a look at the papers.

this isn't what he was expecting. lists of foster parents. he hadn't known silver went through so many families. but then there are the reasons why those relationships ended, and hitsugaya's eyes narrow.

some of them were because he just had horrible parents.

but with elda.... no matter what it says under there, hitsugaya feels himself start to get angry. ]

You know that mother would have never wanted you to leave. You decided that for yourself. I'm sure you're aware, since you're calling yourself a coward.

No. Even now, I'm not sure that I completely believe that.

[It's not just Elda. Elda's a large part of it, sure- it's difficult to just accept that she cares about him, even with all signs pointing to the obvious. It's more difficult to believe that he wouldn't manage to push Elda over the edge somehow, intentional or not.

Elda's name doesn't actually say anything. For all the other names, it's easy to quickly sort out what happened. For Elda... It's more complicated, and that's something better off discussed anyway. He pulls the folder back into his bag.]

But I never even gave her a chance, and I dragged you into it, too. I thought I should clear the air about why.

[Because he'll never admit to Elda in a million years that it was his fault, that he messed up, but Toushiro? He didn't play any part in this. He didn't do anything wrong. He doesn't deserve to have something like that hanging over his head. Silver's said his piece and could get up to head out, but stays rooted in place anyway.]

Edited 2017-05-01 07:38 (UTC)

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[ hitsugaya was still a kid when it happened, but old enough to comprehend what happened. an argument. a lot of yelling. he'd locked himself in his room to drown out the noise, immersed himself in reading as much as he could to ignore it. it was when he found out that silver had left that had really hurt him.

hitsugaya, needless to say, hates his birthday. ]

Then I suppose there's nothing I can do. This is an issue between you and her.

[ all this time, he'd assumed that he'd played a part in it. yet... ]

...I'm surprised she hadn't said anything about this. I didn't know.

[ he's...thankful for this, at least. ]

...I don't know how much of it she knows. I never told her much, and I think there's confidentiality laws about this kind of thing.

[Certainly Elda knew he was a child with a number of problems, but all of this? Probably not. He's not sure if he wants to tell her any of that, either. He's a lot less nice to Elda, and she might not believe him if he had a sudden change of heart anyway. There's not much of a point in opening that can of worms.]

That's fine.

[ he doesn't know if he can forgive silver just yet, but he at least has a deeper understanding of what went down. why silver left without a word. at least in that regard, hitsugaya can find some closure. ]

I thought that I might've had something to do with it. It's why I was reluctant to breach the subject.

...It didn't. I'm not a great person but I'm a pretty bad liar, so believe me when I tell you that you had nothing to do with it, alright?

[That's probably the first time Silver's seemed confident in what he's saying throughout the entire conversation, too.]

...Fine.

[ he'll believe it.

but...he doesn't know what to do now. ]

[...Silver hesitates for a moment, but reaches to put a hand on Toushiro's head. It's a quick gesture he doesn't linger on for long before grabbing his smoothie and standing up.]

Anyway, you've got my number now. If you ever need me for anything, call me.

[Or don't. That's entirely up to him, but the option's open.]

Thanks for coming out here.

[ he doesn't react to the gesture immediately, still sort of processing it, mulling it over in his head. ]

Yeah. See you.

[ his phone number, huh...

maybe it's not too late. ]

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